The world doesn’t slow down or stop to give us a moment or the time we need. We must make that time. There are many things I have been grieving lately and it is like grief on top of grief, pain on top of pain. I couldn’t pause to keep up with this blog. It’s been difficult. I have been grieving the loss of function in my left arm following my accident. I have been struggling with suicidal ideation off and on. I have been grieving the loss of physical strength within my own body. I have been grieving the loss of the parts of me that may never return. Just as I was about to resolve all of this mentally and emotionally, I lost my sister. I think of her every day. I try to remember the good times.

The pain of your grief will keep trying to get your attention until you have the courage to gently, and in small doses, embrace it.

This grief is part of me. It always has been. The other day I sat in front of my counselor only to reckon with the losses I have experienced throughout my life. The loss of my sister is one loss of many.

Grief is like the changing of seasons. We are just getting through winter and spring is around the corner. The days are getting longer and the sun shines on your face a little longer. The world doesn’t slow down to give us a moment or the time we need. We must make the time. This, to not only embrace our grief but lift up your face and remember to breathe. Take in the warmth of the sun after a long cold winter. With grief as an ever present companion, we learn to hold both the pain of loss and the hope of better days.